{"id":3291,"date":"2021-11-27T17:59:21","date_gmt":"2021-11-27T17:59:21","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/vendettaverse.com\/members\/?p=3291"},"modified":"2021-11-27T17:59:21","modified_gmt":"2021-11-27T17:59:21","slug":"how-the-hell-do-i-move-into-2022","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/vendettaverse.com\/members\/2021\/11\/how-the-hell-do-i-move-into-2022\/","title":{"rendered":"How the hell do I move into 2022"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">How the hell do I move forward into 2022?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">No, I mean really, how can I?&nbsp; I was so sure that, when covid hit it would be worse than others thought it would be&#8230;and it was.&nbsp; I was sure it\u2019d last two years when everyone was so sure it would last a few months or even less!<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">My last time on stage for burlesque was Feb 2020, when I did a Valentines show in Northampton, MA for EpixCore Productions.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">I did a stripshow out of grey sweatpants and a hoodie with donuts on it, to Justin Beiber\u2019s \u201cYummy\u201d and I ate alot of donuts while doing it.&nbsp; And then I sat on some jelly donuts and jelly squirted all over My butt.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">It was a mashup striptease\/twerk\/mukkbang\/WAM show and it\u2019s something I was quite proud of!&nbsp; I had been JUST enjoying getting back to burlesque and performing live outside of the stripclub\u2026.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">My last date at the stripclub was a few days after My bday March 5th, 2020, I had told the managers I believed the clubs were gonna have to shut down.&nbsp; I urged him to rethink his cleaning processes.&nbsp; I had brought agrip of My own cleanser and hand sanitizer and personally cleaned the stages and poles before I got up there.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">I got in trouble for freaking people out actually\u2026.and was told to stop cleaning.&nbsp; I eman anyone who has come to see Me at the beginning of a club shift for the last five or six years knows I would begin My first stage set of the day without My heels, crawling on My hands and knees cleaning the stage as I went.&nbsp; Climbing up and cleaning off the poles.&nbsp; Sometimes I would dress as a french maid and accept tips.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Here\u2019s actually a video from 2015 of Me doing a stage cleaning at Anthony\u2019s&#8230;it was quite&nbsp; popular show!<\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-embed is-type-video is-provider-youtube wp-block-embed-youtube wp-embed-aspect-16-9 wp-has-aspect-ratio\"><div class=\"wp-block-embed__wrapper\">\n<iframe loading=\"lazy\" title=\"stage cleansing at Anthony&amp;apos;s\" width=\"640\" height=\"360\" src=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/embed\/KmiAyupt6_k?feature=oembed\" frameborder=\"0\" allow=\"accelerometer; autoplay; clipboard-write; encrypted-media; gyroscope; picture-in-picture; web-share\" referrerpolicy=\"strict-origin-when-cross-origin\" allowfullscreen><\/iframe>\n<\/div><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">***<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Anyway, it was nothing new that I was cleaning the stage but now it was noticed.&nbsp; My last shift as&nbsp; a house dancer was at the 5th Alarm in Springfield, MA.&nbsp; A club I loved deeply and dearly and had many many friends at from DJ\u2019s to bouncers to dancers to customers.&nbsp; We were a weird lil fucked up family in there and I miss it in many ways.&nbsp; That day tho, I knew it wasn\u2019t safe.&nbsp; I could feel it.&nbsp; An old man came in sniffling and then s neezed all over the stage and I knew in a lapdance I didn\u2019t really want to get to close to anybody.&nbsp; I left half way through My shift and just basically never went back.&nbsp; About ten days later is when the clubs shut down completely in the whole state.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">I had taken a 2 year hiatus from dancing to manage Club Castaway so I was JUST getting My stage legs back in many ways, when they got swiped from under Me.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">I know I am not unique or alone int he fact that covid took things from My and changed My trajectory, I am just sharing My story\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">I had been very selectively accepting new submissives to serve Me in My studio and mostly had a few trusted subs who served Me there.&nbsp; I made art there, had My office there, took photographs there.&nbsp; Dr. Sketchy\u2019s 413 was born there, TeamClearHeels413 took root there and so many of My best ideas sprung from My time at that studio.&nbsp; I loved it so, so much. When covid hit we weren\u2019t even allowed in the building.&nbsp; Yet we were expected to pay full rent on it&#8230;so for 3 months I paid and couldn\u2019t access My work\u2026.When we could finally come back, I knew I didn\u2019t feel safe there either.&nbsp; Too much shared space, shared air and shared air ducts and an elderly painter as a neighbor who coughed and hacked and I just couldn\u2019t be comfortable.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">At home in My apartment I didn\u2019t feel great either, upstairs and downstairs jeighbors, shared common spaces, always trying to squeeze by someone on the porch. Neighbors who threw parties and didn\u2019t give&nbsp; scrap about covid, bored landlords who wanted a project since they couldn\u2019t work, so they began hanging around and doing minor renovations and painting and just generally being around allllll the time.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">SO:<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">I got rid of everything. I gave up My apartment I\u2019d been in for 7 years.&nbsp; Packed everything up. Gave tons of shit away, downsized. And ended up moving into a beautiful little house in the woods.&nbsp; Away from everyone with no immediate neighbors.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">I got rid of the studio, moved My whole life I\u2019d built there, down 3 flights of real steep stairs, and then up another flight of stairs into a&nbsp; storage unit.&nbsp; And then back down again and into the house&nbsp; a month later.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Without a place to photograph models or see clients I basically just went wholly online.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">My onlyfans was poppin, I applied for and got a grant for an art project, bought a nice camera, took My photography seriously and began photographing the \u201c413 Figure Studies\u201d and \u201cIsolation Connection\u201d photo essays. Even those photo projects were Me shooting from 20 feet or more away.,..outside, sometimes in the freezing cold, with a long range lens. I waasn\u2019t doing inside, studio photography.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">&nbsp;I spent ALOT of time helping MY Pro Domme and escort and stripper friends go onlne and learn how to do things all over again. I did it so much it was becoming like a job. I did a write up and everything and was providing support for all these people.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">So that\u2019s sort of how TreasureCams was born.&nbsp; By the end of 2020 I had opened up the webcam studio: TreasureCams.com and started signing people up, mentoring them and setting everything up for them. Providing ongoing support, doing monthly team meetings and it just grew and grew.&nbsp; We are over 40 performers at this point!&nbsp; I had a personal goal of being at 50 performers by the end of the year but&#8230;I am close and that\u2019s what matters!&nbsp; (also, the year is not over yet!)<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Now when everything closed down I got a record and I mean record number of people trying to book Me for Pro Domme sessions, asking where I was dancing, if I was doing meetups etc.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">I didn\u2019t feel safe doing any of those things and after I got rid of the studio I wouldn\u2019t have even had a place to meet with folks if I wanted to.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">When the clubs opened back up I knew I didn\u2019t want to go back and still didn\u2019t feel safe.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">It sort of forced Me to retire from dancing about 5 years before I wanted to.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">I actually had this planned out!<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">My body, and the world had other plans\u2026..<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Now, here we are, two years later.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">I still get a high number of in person requests.&nbsp; I am still without a studio, still not dancing, still without much desire to reconnect to dangerous in persona ctivities like that.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">I have enjoyed sitting in My office overlooking the mountains running shit from there.&nbsp; I will be back on cam this winter so there\u2019s another revenue source, plus human interaction.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">The money is comparable to dancing and I can kick, ban block or report anyone anytime.&nbsp; No bouncer needed.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">I am still getting alot of requests now for in person things like feature dancing, and where am I hosting My birthday party this year and folks wanna come see Mme dance and clubs want Me to feature and Universities want to hire me to figure model.&nbsp; It feels really great to be in demand, but I also still feel scared.&nbsp; I don\u2019t feel real safe doing any of these things.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">I also feel pressure because I feel like, last year it was understandable when I said no, this year,,,,eh, and I don\u2019t know if venues and promoters will keep asking Me if I say no this year\u2026.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">I have a big return to the stage planned for Haven nightclub in February.&nbsp; That\u2019s not a stripclub, just a burlesque show.&nbsp; It\u2019s a vaxx only and masked event which makes Me feel a bit better.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Before that. This dec 4th I have an in person holiday market I will be vending.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">I\u2019ll be there with My goods from 10 am til 5 pm, selling My handmade perfumes, bath soaks, framed art, vintage clothing and 2022 calendars!&nbsp; A longer post about that here on the public side of the site:<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">*****<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Now, I am still nervous about these events!<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">What if I have an anxiety attack!&nbsp; What if the unthinkable happens and I get sick!&nbsp; Omg Goddess forbid\u2026.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">I have aclub that wants Me to host&nbsp; abday party in March.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">I really and truly wanna do this stuff.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Do I dare? Do I dare to plan?&nbsp; Do I dare to just move forward about how I can live My life with covid in the world instead of hiding away trying to keep Myself safe from idiots?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Lots of questions.&nbsp; Not many answers that time can\u2019t tell\u2026.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">For now I am leaning towards one well thought out event per month maybe?&nbsp; Reduce risks, stay masked.&nbsp; I have My covid vax booster shot comign up monday.&nbsp; I planned it for monday cuz I\u2019ll have all this turkey soup made and the original vax made Me SO sick for so long I am anticipating being out of it for a little bit\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">I can\u2019t see Myself really returning to being a house dancer, but might consider doing special events.&nbsp; I can\u2019t see Myself really going back to figure modelling regularly but I do hope to go back to running My own group again.&nbsp; I even want to do it outside where it\u2019s safe!&nbsp; This coming summer that\u2019s the goal.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Thanks for letting Me vent here yall.&nbsp; I don\u2019t expect answers from anyone, or even input really.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">I have alot of folks I trust that I discuss this stuff with including doctors, paramedics and health professionals.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">I am immuno compromised and have so many health issues it would certainly be really, really bad for Me if I did ever get covid and it\u2019s something I\u2019m terrified of.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">I\u2019ve almost died of the flu in the past.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">And happy to say that since being masked havent experienced any significant flu\/colds or illness!&nbsp; Makes Me wanna stay tucked away in this mountain side house taking selfies of My vagina for yall!<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">HA!<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">But it won\u2019t all be selfies, because just like liveshows, I think I have to mitigate and weigh out the consequences, and doing one major shoot with a professional every 1-3 months depending on season is what I am aiming for.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">I am thrilled to say I think I\u2019ll be working with photographer Isabel, and photographer Shaynelle Francis alot more in the new year.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">I also booked a gift to Myself, two photoshoots with this photographer I\u2019ve wanted to shoot with so&#8230;expect smexy underwater photos in the new year too!&nbsp; Lots of never before seen footage and shoots coming!<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">My work with SUnny Cheex will continue coming out too!<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">I think you\u2019ve listened to Me blather on long enough now, and I managed to talk Myself into a positive mental state by the end of this article because I\u2019m excited for all that is coming!<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Since The holidays are coming up:<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Consider sending Me something from My holiday wishlist?&nbsp; See the links here:<\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-embed is-type-wp-embed is-provider-vendettaverse wp-block-embed-vendettaverse\"><div class=\"wp-block-embed__wrapper\">\nhttps:\/\/vendettaverse.com\/bella-vendettas-holiday-wishlist\/\n<\/div><figcaption>Bella&#8217;s holiday wishlist<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>How the hell do I move forward into 2022? 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